Whose World Is it Anyway?

Sometimes, it's hard to look at yourself. Especially with everything that is going on in life. And there is a lot, whether it be war in Israel/Palestine, political aggression in the Ukraine, political obscurity in the U.S., Jeter's last season, Germany winning the cup, Dawn of the planet of the apes, new Pink Floyd albums, or whatever. There is a lot around us. But, what about ourselves. How often do you stop to look at yourself. Just think about what you're doing. Not what the world is, what society is, but who you are. You can't control the world. You can only control yourself. I've always thought that I am important, in the grand scheme of things. Like I should be doing something that will be revolutionary. Something that will benefit as many people as I can.That isn't very realistic. When I look at myself, I see a kid. A child who is scared. Petrified. Where am I going, and what have I done? I've made memories for myself. Accomplished some life goals. And at almost 19 years old I have time. But, how will I use it. I'm not just scared of myself, but of what will happen. Man fears what he can't understand. It's how you approach this fear. For 18 years I hid from it, now I finally feel as though I am fighting back. There are many ways to go about any obstacle in life. There is no right way, there is no way that is predetermined. Destiny springs from decisions. There is no way to disprove destiny, therefore it is impossible to say it does not exist. However, it is not proven. You can choose to believe in destiny, believe there is a plan that will always guide you in the right direction. If that helps you then so be it. If you prefer to believe you are in control, and that each decision you make is from freewill, then you are free to decide that. Just decide something. If you don't look at yourself, you'll never know who you are. You will get lost in everyone Else's world. Do the things they want, feel the emotions brought on by their actions. You don't have to be a go getter, you just have to find complacency. If you are content with the way something is, you don't have to let anyone else persuade you other wise. Greed is when another person persuades you to give up your happiness. Your complacency. Nobody owes anyone anything. Your life is lived for you. If you want to screw someone over. You are free to do so. You just have to live with the consequences. Whether it be jail, execution, or guilt. Finding who you are is a never ending process. Our views and our needs are constantly changing just like the world around us. You just have to take the time to see if you're changing yourself, or if everything around else, is changing you.