Thinking About College

Sometimes, when I'm by myself, I feel like I should be doing more. There is so much that I could be doing, and I feel like I'm not really experiencing all of what life is. I'm heading off to college soon, and I still feel like a little kid dreaming about what I'll do when I grow up. I'm ready to start college, but I'm not so sure I'm ready for what comes after that. I have four years to figure out a career, but I've always felt like I'm supposed to do something extraordinary. I feel like I have both the potential and responsibility to change the world in some extreme manner. I know everyone feels like they're special in their own way, but I feel like if I'm not out there doing something that is going to benefit the majority of all people, then I'm wasting my time. Many religions preach that life should be spent doing your best to honor God's wishes or giving yourself the best chance in the after life, or next life. But, as a cultural Jew, I don't personally believe in these views. I don't want to disrespect anyone who does because to each his own, but I have found that my own sense of fulfillment comes from helping the people and world around me. By making the world that I can see a better place, I can feel as though I've done something with my life, and actually see the results. But, how likely is it that I'll be the President of the United States, or an accredited philosopher, or an influential musician/artist. It's not very likely. In the next four years I hope to learn about what I can do to help people and change the globe. That's what college should really be for. Everyone she find what they want to do with their lives. There's plenty of time for fun while your there, and I intend to party a fair amount. (Starting in London where the drinking age is 18.) But, really I want to make sure I know what I'm going to be doing in four years when I graduate. It's nice to live in the present and just see where the world takes us. Sometimes that's the best way to appreciate the world around you. But, to really look out for yourself, sometimes you have to plan for the future. Or at least have some sort of idea. I don't know what your all looking for, but I hope it's worth it to you.